From the day when you can control things,
the very first word you spoke,
the very first item you manipulated,
the very first conscious deep sleep you took,
the very first arithmetic question you solved,
the very first friend you befriended,
you feel that you are in control,
and it will be in such way forever.
But from the day when you have to control things,
every word that you spoke,
every item that you manipulated,
every rest that you took,
every arithmetic question that you solved,
every friend that you befriended,
you hope that you are in control,
and it will not be out of your hands.
As aging process takes place,
Realisation of that there are things that can't be in control,
But still,
People work really hard to be organised,
and to remain on the "throne" of their own kingdom.
But if the motivation is from trying to keep everything in its respective spot,
Why do things become so messy on its own?
Even without your own manipulation or effort,
Things can still get out of hands and change.
So what do you perceived as being in control?
You won't know for sure if that,
the words that you have spoken is the way you want people to understand,
the items that you have manipulated is the way you want it to end up like,
the rest that you have taken is the actual amount of deep sleep you envisioned,
the arithmetic questions that you have came up with an answer to be accurate,
the friends you have taken time befriending to be your exclusive friends for life.
Being in control doesn't mean that you have to acquire what you have exactly aimed it to be like,
It's actually not being thrown off even if in the end,
what you have wanted,
did not go the way you wanted it to be.
K.Tang
21/09/2014
Sunday, September 21, 2014
Thursday, September 11, 2014
The sun
I'm the core,
I'm the centre of everything,
hence I control everything,
I control the amount of beams that I release,
I manage the amount of energy that I burn,
I allow the amount of planets circling around me.
I'm the core,
I'm the centre of everything,
but I don't control everything,
Other planets filter the amount of beams that they acquire,
Other planets manage the amount of energy that they receive,
Other planets also have their own moons and satellites circling around them.
I'm not the core,
I'm not the centre of everything,
and I certainly can't control everything,
as I'm only in my own galaxy.
Other galaxies have their own way of illumination,
Other galaxies have their own energy systems,
Other galaxies also have their own systems and planets populating in them.
Ultimately,
everyone's important in their own way.
Stop thinking about changing someone else,
Stop complaining about how others act,
Stop expecting that things will be done your way,
As the sun continues to burn on its own,
Supplying endless amounts of beams and energy,
The planets carry on remaining in their own orbit,
As what's important is not how much you will receive back what you've given
the crucial part is that you have willingly and effortlessly done your best,
in being what you might perceive subconsciously as...
The Absolute Centre of Everything.
With warm regards
K.Tang
I'm the centre of everything,
hence I control everything,
I control the amount of beams that I release,
I manage the amount of energy that I burn,
I allow the amount of planets circling around me.
I'm the core,
I'm the centre of everything,
but I don't control everything,
Other planets filter the amount of beams that they acquire,
Other planets manage the amount of energy that they receive,
Other planets also have their own moons and satellites circling around them.
I'm not the core,
I'm not the centre of everything,
and I certainly can't control everything,
as I'm only in my own galaxy.
Other galaxies have their own way of illumination,
Other galaxies have their own energy systems,
Other galaxies also have their own systems and planets populating in them.
Ultimately,
everyone's important in their own way.
Stop thinking about changing someone else,
Stop complaining about how others act,
Stop expecting that things will be done your way,
As the sun continues to burn on its own,
Supplying endless amounts of beams and energy,
The planets carry on remaining in their own orbit,
As what's important is not how much you will receive back what you've given
the crucial part is that you have willingly and effortlessly done your best,
in being what you might perceive subconsciously as...
The Absolute Centre of Everything.
With warm regards
K.Tang
Tuesday, May 20, 2014
Static
It's been ages since I updated my blog
Even though from the looks of things I am living a busy life
But somehow a part of me still feel static
Still at the same place
Still at the same mentality
Still at the same pace
And definitely still feeling the same old self
I find it odd when people said "You've grown and matured"
But why can't I see it through my own very eyes?
Are they commenting on the physical changes?
I must admit that time haven't been that nice to me
But hey, I guess most people have the same lament at a certain stage of life
All the things and opportunities that I've gained and missed
Regretting over and celebrating over
But things that tends to haunt you
Ultimately are the things that you have no control over
That's the nature of human beings I guess
Even myself can't dodge this reality
So I always remind myself consciously
Not to over-think it
But in the end
It still lingers in the mind
Appearing in your subconscious state
So yeah
when people asks me, "How've you been?"
The standard answer that they wanna hear is probably, "I'm fine."
But being a person like me
Who at least consciously keep reminding himself to be an alternate human being but ending up as another average commoner
At this stage
I would reply
"Static"
At least I wish to be
With regards
Kevin
20th May 2014
Sunday, August 04, 2013
Saturday, July 06, 2013
I've been waiting
Every second goes by
Every particle of life lands on its respectful place and move on
Every travel of an air molecule
Every strand of matter you see floating across the harsh light
I've been waiting for this?
From every piece of memory formed
From every glance of vision distracted
From every taste of life experienced
From every breath of air exchanged
I've been waiting for that?
Is it true that you had traveled back in time?
Is it true that you had ever wished you could?
Is it true that you had raised your head looking into the past?
Is it true that you had been down because of echoes from deep within?
I've been waiting for thou?
I'll admit that I am not as complete that you think
I'll swear that I am not as tough that you hope I am
I'll promise that I am not as cold that you wished I was
I'll conclude that I am just another mere human being
What have I been waiting for?
As the voyage continues to flow
As the journey pushes us to go
As the sun is dying to glow
As the clouds are starting to show
That's what I've been waiting for
And that's when I'll continue to waltz through everything once again
At least with everything that I've gained
From waiting for what I've been waiting for
With warm regards
Hoi Mun (Kevin) Tang
2013 July 6th
Every particle of life lands on its respectful place and move on
Every travel of an air molecule
Every strand of matter you see floating across the harsh light
I've been waiting for this?
From every piece of memory formed
From every glance of vision distracted
From every taste of life experienced
From every breath of air exchanged
I've been waiting for that?
Is it true that you had traveled back in time?
Is it true that you had ever wished you could?
Is it true that you had raised your head looking into the past?
Is it true that you had been down because of echoes from deep within?
I've been waiting for thou?
I'll admit that I am not as complete that you think
I'll swear that I am not as tough that you hope I am
I'll promise that I am not as cold that you wished I was
I'll conclude that I am just another mere human being
What have I been waiting for?
As the voyage continues to flow
As the journey pushes us to go
As the sun is dying to glow
As the clouds are starting to show
That's what I've been waiting for
And that's when I'll continue to waltz through everything once again
At least with everything that I've gained
From waiting for what I've been waiting for
With warm regards
Hoi Mun (Kevin) Tang
2013 July 6th
Saturday, February 02, 2013
大人游戏
从小到现在
我们在不停的玩人生的游戏
也许觉得小时候的难关
现在看回去
多了经验 也多了一份勇敢
现在反而感觉为什么大人的难关如此的难闯
突然就想起了当初多了大人的帮助的确不一样
怎么说 现在独立时代的到来 每日的风风雨雨
都是靠自己而继续的走下去的

有时侯虽然很想回到过去
躲躲闪闪的 也会有人伸出圆手
虽然时间是残忍的
但有时侯也会觉得时间是温暖的
经过那些时断时续
才会有今天的自己
与其回到我们的童年寻找躲避与安慰
还不如计划着怎么去应付眼前的事故
只要明白了这道理
你就会渐渐的
Level Up!
也为未来做好了一点心灵的备份
from Wretch Addie 2013
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
The Invisible Curtains
You live in a dark environment to start with
When you're ready
You started clear as a newly tinted window
You were exposed to things you have not seen before in the past
You were learning as you age
You started to get hold of particular scenes of life
Your parents have been putting up the blinds for you
Depending on their social backgrounds
For the things they assumed they weren't ready to see at your age
For the things they thought were heartbreaking for your vision
For the things they wished they have not seen in the past
But sometimes curiosity is a strong will power
To unfold the things you assumed you were ready to see at your age
To uncover the things you thought weren't all that heartbreaking for your vision
To find out the things your parents wished they have not seen in the past
But in the end
Curiosity became the blamer for most of your undesired visions
But with that
A growth is experienced
Adulthood is gradually achieved
Although deep down inside
We as adults would have tamed our curious inner child
Sometimes
with the hardship and complexity of adulthood
you would have wished that
You've never been curious at all
As we return home after a challenging day
All we yearn for
Is to shut the curtains
To our spaces
Externally and internally
And enter the world
where consciousness state is minimal
2013.1.29
Hoi-Mun Tang
Monday, January 28, 2013
那碗粥
过了好久
甜酸苦辣
最后还是觉得回到原点
吃一碗温馨的粥
还是最好的
突然间
想家了
外婆不知道过得如何
但愿她现在无论在那里都好
希望她安安稳稳的
一首[天黑黑]
带我回到了思念的故乡
我会继续的努力的
from Wretch Addie 2013
Friendship
All these years
All those memories
All that craziness
All that has passed
Remains in our little diary of friendship
Friends come and go
It's up to yourself to grasp them
And remain them on the present
For a spot in the future
Where there's you
and there's them
with your new friends
Cherish your friends
Cherish your loved ones
And definitely cherish your memories
Growing up to who you are now
2013.01.28
Thursday, December 13, 2012
A touch of copper
It's a sudden nudge for me sometimes
When I decide to go different
Especially for hair colour in particular
Then it struck in my mind
"Why not?"
So I decided to go with the lightest colour ever in my life
Off to the saloon
No regrets
As I bear the stinginess of the hair-dye
Thinking of what I would look like
Thinking how would people perceive me
Superficially
But in the end
I came to a conclusion
"Who cares?"
As the colour deeply embedded in my hair keratin
A change can be signifying a new start
A change can be hard to cope and accept
A change can be superficial or deep
But it ultimately depends on you
Whether the change affected you
Or the people surrounding you
A change can not be a change
Or a change can be actually life-changing
Time for a change?
Well, I accept anything that comes it way
Not only a touch of copper
But miraculously
Hope I could turn into a new leaf
And change for a better me
2012.12.13
Friday, November 30, 2012
Simplicity
Something bothersome
How would you deal with it?
How would I deal with it?
Ignore it? Patience? Work around it?
Or you have to get rid of it or at least do something to alter it
Partially? Completely?
Sometimes life isn't all what you wish for.
But the future me would definitely hate myself for doing things half assed
Unlike children, they wish for simple things like glucose treats
While when you're an adult, you wish what a kid used to have, your inner child's possession
Naivety, ignorance towards reality, and simplicity
Though some kids are complicated, but generally they're simple minded
How would they deal with something bothersome?
The simple answer to a child is probably leave it to the adults
But as adults it is not compulsory to get rid of something bothersome for good
As not all of them are get riddable
Solution sometimes includes living with it, adapting to it and competing with it
After all that's what life's about, isn't it?
In the end, it makes us appreciate the simple times in future
A white cloth on a flat green land
A straw basket with some plain white sandwich
A bright sun in the clear blue sky
Well that's my image of simplicity
Why complicate things with politics, power and other personal grudges?
What's your image of simplicity?
Put a curve on that lips and think simple.
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Satisfactory
People tend to be greedy
People tend to be wanting more
People tend to achieve the best
And that includes me
I just realised how I yearn to be a perfectionist
I won't accept just a satisfactory grade
I need a superior grade
Is this greedy?
Is this over competitive?
Why can't I just be satisfied with a satisfactory remark?
Why do I want to have a superior grade?
I don't know
I want to know
I know but couldn't find the answer
Just like today's presentation
I knew the answers
I knew how to present well
But I don't know well enough to do it formally
So I blame myself for a satisfactory
When everyone only wishes for a satisfactory
I wish to be more
Stubborn but
...
it's a worthwhile chase
Isn't it?
Kevin Tang
2012 August 21
Saturday, August 04, 2012
Equilibrium
What comes around goes around...
Fair say, but does everything follow this rule?
Nevertheless, people would like things to be balanced.
Just like yin and yang.
But of course people as much as how they wouldn't admit their greed,
I am inclusive of course,
would like things to be in a comfortable outcome more than its counterpart.
With so much on your plate
Sometimes you just wish you don't have to keep them in balance
With time, with health, with family, friendships, personal relationships...
Time had been wasted and gained
Health had been neglected and warranted
Family had been torn and reunited
Friendships had been distanced and reattached
Love had been bitter and sweet
Sounds overwhelming but I guess human beings just adapt to it
Evolution continues, regardless of what any outcome it may be
Since to most people, balance isn't a definite 50-50 ratio
It's more like what they show in chemical equations
The equilibrium
The process still continues
The scales still continues to sway up and down
As long as the core remains
As earthquakes, storms, tornadoes tries to put you off balance
As you fall, there's no other way but to stand up again
And to continue the equilibrium
Acknowledging the past
Stabilizing at present
And reassurance for the future
Kevin Tang
04 August 2012
The cause of imbalance: Reality VS Naivety
and physiological vertigo
The equilibrium continues...
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Oblivion
From the moment in the sealed up place,
Slowly onto a stranger's embrace.
The first emotional expression to the very present mood,
All I know is how merciless the hands of the clock can be,
Not sparing a second to waste.
Little boy crawled to stand,
Falls and failures like the sand,
All shaped by thy guardians' hand,
Sometimes stolen and left mighty to stand,
Not a single being would ever understand,
How things had gotten so out of hand.
As cells grow and degenerate,
Memories are still to be kept,
Like a process of evolution,
Only the strongest survives and adheres,
To our very own present and future,
Tormented or blessed, it's in our minds,
Naturally or forcefully never fights,
As gradually everything goes automatically,
into a trance of silent oblivion,
which may creep up to us quietly,
like a prey stalked by a lion,
But no scars or damage are to be witnessed,
when it ambushes,
as severity depends on how the oblivious it can be.
Written by
Kevin Tang Hoi Mun
2012/4/22
Slowly onto a stranger's embrace.
The first emotional expression to the very present mood,
All I know is how merciless the hands of the clock can be,
Not sparing a second to waste.
Little boy crawled to stand,
Falls and failures like the sand,
All shaped by thy guardians' hand,
Sometimes stolen and left mighty to stand,
Not a single being would ever understand,
How things had gotten so out of hand.
As cells grow and degenerate,
Memories are still to be kept,
Like a process of evolution,
Only the strongest survives and adheres,
To our very own present and future,
Tormented or blessed, it's in our minds,
Naturally or forcefully never fights,
As gradually everything goes automatically,
into a trance of silent oblivion,
which may creep up to us quietly,
like a prey stalked by a lion,
But no scars or damage are to be witnessed,
when it ambushes,
as severity depends on how the oblivious it can be.
Written by
Kevin Tang Hoi Mun
2012/4/22
Friday, December 30, 2011
Comes and Goes
I am here.
I am stationary.
I feel the same breeze blowing pass me.
I see the same lights shining over me.
I hear the same sound flickering towards me.
I deal with the same people wanting something from me.
I am stationary?
Why do I feel the harsh breeze blowing on me?
Why do I see the glaring lights shining over me?
Why do I hear unfamiliar noises overlapping on me?
Why do I deal with strange people wanting to give something to me?
I am still stationary.
You came.
You are wavering.
You shift to feel the same breeze blowing pass me.
You change to see the same lights shining over me.
You move to hear the same sound flickering towards me.
You decide to deal with the same people wanting something from me.
You are wavering?
How can you shift to feel the same harsh breeze blowing on me?
How can you change to see the same glaring lights shining over me?
How can you move to hear the same unfamiliar noises overlapping on me?
How can you decide to deal with the same strange people wanting to give something to me?
You are still wavering.
You left.
You assumed I was wavering,
But I was nothing but stationary.
I felt the same harsh breeze blowing pass us.
I saw the same glaring lights shining over us.
I heard the same unfamiliar noises overlapping on us.
I dealt with the same strange people wanting to give something to us.
I am still here.
Still here feeling, seeing, hearing, and dealing,
With the vacant space that you wavered away from.
I am still stationary,
Stationary unlike the unspoken waverer.
Written by Kevin Tang
2012
I am stationary.
I feel the same breeze blowing pass me.
I see the same lights shining over me.
I hear the same sound flickering towards me.
I deal with the same people wanting something from me.
I am stationary?
Why do I feel the harsh breeze blowing on me?
Why do I see the glaring lights shining over me?
Why do I hear unfamiliar noises overlapping on me?
Why do I deal with strange people wanting to give something to me?
I am still stationary.
You came.
You are wavering.
You shift to feel the same breeze blowing pass me.
You change to see the same lights shining over me.
You move to hear the same sound flickering towards me.
You decide to deal with the same people wanting something from me.
You are wavering?
How can you shift to feel the same harsh breeze blowing on me?
How can you change to see the same glaring lights shining over me?
How can you move to hear the same unfamiliar noises overlapping on me?
How can you decide to deal with the same strange people wanting to give something to me?
You are still wavering.
You left.
You assumed I was wavering,
But I was nothing but stationary.
I felt the same harsh breeze blowing pass us.
I saw the same glaring lights shining over us.
I heard the same unfamiliar noises overlapping on us.
I dealt with the same strange people wanting to give something to us.
I am still here.
Still here feeling, seeing, hearing, and dealing,
With the vacant space that you wavered away from.
I am still stationary,
Stationary unlike the unspoken waverer.
Written by Kevin Tang
2012
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Kevin Tang - Dedicated To You [ORIGINAL]
Always feeling musical during assignment or exam periods...
This time I wrote a song, "dedicated to you"
Song title: Dedicated to You
Lyrics and composed by Kevin Tang
The sun's shining on me
It tells me to breathe
It knows that I can't say THAT out loud to you
PRE-CHORUS
You know that I'm introverted
Sometimes think that I'm perverted
So I wrote you this song
Hope you'll know
Wish you'll know
My feelings (affections) for you
CHORUS
I miss (need) you I want (love) you
That's what I'll do
To the East (North) To the West (South)
I'll go for you
All I need (wish) All I want (hope)
is you by my side
Oh how I wish that I'm with you
Oh I just want to be with you
The moon's glaring at me
It's so hard to believe
Time passes so quick and I haven't say THAT in awhile
Repeat (PRE-CHORUS)
Repeat (CHORUS)
This song is dedicated to you
You know who you are
So I don't have to say directly to you
Repeat CHORUS
What I've written just for you
Is my way of saying that
I'm glued~
#END
Wednesday, November 09, 2011
Seclusion: Battle between two selfs
Once ever so sunny, now it is drizzling,
Things that have gone smoothly, sometimes obstructive,
Just like most people in life,
mood swings, ups and downs, high and low,
there is never a definite description that will last forever,
no matter how you wish it would stay.
Range of happiness,
range of sadness,
but no matter how down your mood is,
once it hits rock bottom,
there is no other way but up,
and it happens the other way around as well,
just like the exhilarating part of alcohol,
then comes the irritating hangover,
and goes back to the normal daily life phase.
Sad<---------Normal--------->Happy
Is it really true that everyone put their mood in a rating scale?
As a medical profession I've always had been asking about from scale of 1 to 10,
how would the patient rate their mood/ pain/ feeling?
Then I ask myself at the end,
Is it possible to quantify anything so subjective?
Can you actually isolate the feeling to a respective percentage or integer?
When you explore it,
it is always more than just being some ranking to allow other health professionals to get an insight of what a patient feels,
Does it always mean the same if other people gave the same digit to describe their feelings?
Do people in general all express their feelings in the same way?
Or following the social norms?
I guess it ultimately relies on a person's personality,
although this is where misunderstandings and assumptions are made,
by people who think they know it all but in fact,
they are just people who are following to the codes that are perceived as 'normal' in society.
People try their best to stay on the optimum mood,
People try to avoid and be somewhat of an isolationist,
But all with intention of trying to keep their mood stable,
Seclusion does not always have to be a negative thing to do,
Deep inside,
At least you are with someone who understands and knows you the best,
who is capable of dealing with the enemy deep within you
which is yourself...
against...
yourself
by Kaiwyn Tang
Things that have gone smoothly, sometimes obstructive,
Just like most people in life,
mood swings, ups and downs, high and low,
there is never a definite description that will last forever,
no matter how you wish it would stay.
Range of happiness,
range of sadness,
but no matter how down your mood is,
once it hits rock bottom,
there is no other way but up,
and it happens the other way around as well,
just like the exhilarating part of alcohol,
then comes the irritating hangover,
and goes back to the normal daily life phase.
Sad<---------Normal--------->Happy
Is it really true that everyone put their mood in a rating scale?
As a medical profession I've always had been asking about from scale of 1 to 10,
how would the patient rate their mood/ pain/ feeling?
Then I ask myself at the end,
Is it possible to quantify anything so subjective?
Can you actually isolate the feeling to a respective percentage or integer?
When you explore it,
it is always more than just being some ranking to allow other health professionals to get an insight of what a patient feels,
Does it always mean the same if other people gave the same digit to describe their feelings?
Do people in general all express their feelings in the same way?
Or following the social norms?
I guess it ultimately relies on a person's personality,
although this is where misunderstandings and assumptions are made,
by people who think they know it all but in fact,
they are just people who are following to the codes that are perceived as 'normal' in society.
People try their best to stay on the optimum mood,
People try to avoid and be somewhat of an isolationist,
But all with intention of trying to keep their mood stable,
Seclusion does not always have to be a negative thing to do,
Deep inside,
At least you are with someone who understands and knows you the best,
who is capable of dealing with the enemy deep within you
which is yourself...
against...
yourself
by Kaiwyn Tang
Wednesday, November 02, 2011
Aftermath
"It's important to monitor you since you're on Clozapine when it has the side effects of agranulocytosis which is a white cell defect and potential myocarditis...", while I explain to the patient and handed over the blood collection kit to the new RMO in ward. I was not confident to do it on an aggressive patient yet.Things are always about side effects in pharmacological intervention,
but recently I think people act hastily in general some times,
even with knowing the possible consequences, they still happen to do it.
What drives them to actually act on their intuition?
Is there any degree of gain involved?
Sometimes trying to be in their shoes to understand what they are going through,
but psychology can get a bit complicated and you would not want to be too attached to your patient.
When psychiatry registrars are explaining things like philosophers,
about how could the patients present with this behavior,
with all the psychodynamics and biological models,
it somehow connected to me,
the words uttered from him somehow makes sense to me,
which is different when I am doing other rotation (eg. neuro, cardio etc)
Could this be from doing too much psychiatry?
Do I want to be in psychiatry?- I don't know,
at least not consciously,
not if I sit down and research about what I really want,
besides there is still lots to be experienced yet.
"I understand that you've been using alcohol as something to numb away the sorrow and grief, but now your body is too intoxicated, and they want the alcohol out. We can still provide some benzos for your withdrawal after doing the AWS, then monitor you closely...", stated the consultant while I'm writing the progress notes in patient's file.Loss can be really shocking to anyone,
With such an intense stimuli, it is normal for a person to defend it,
unconsciously or consciously.
In denial, forming a barrier and keeping the loss from within,
finding a replacement (eg alcohol and drug abuse),
referring back to the origin or when naivety is most likely prevalent,
these are all examples of defensive methods after a loss.
The positive approach would be desirable, to move on,
but it will take a while.
Things that can't be undone,
things that comes back to haunt you,
things that makes you feel imperfect,
Aftermath,
how scary and fearful it is,
but hey,
I guess you acquire active immunity from it,
it will get less intense next time when it happens,
but it is just another way of comforting yourself,
isn't it?
honestly speaking...
by
Kaiwyn Tang
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Truth beyond lies
Starting from the bottom of my heart,
most people at my age still tends to behave like a kid from time to time,
never in their naivety that they realise,
what could happen in reality,
so most of them follow the crowd,
most leaders would still have a period of time when they were followers,
until they achieve something great and was once far out of reach,
they followed the crowd and gather all the experience and knowledge.
I used the term 'most people' just to feel less guilty and to get on with it easier to be honest.
In this era, most people would acquire knowledge from tertiary studies
and worry about how to gain experience in the future.
But not all people are satisfied with just facing the books and computers,
some would be involved in work just to feel like living,
but some would involved in work actually for a living.
This could not be compared to theory, "Eat to live or live to eat"
Because you still have to eat to survive, it is a mandatory act,
but people who work just to feel like living does not compulsorily need to work.,
but who does not like some cash into their own wallet?
Men created currency to help make things function easier in the world,
but without knowing how people now cannot function without money,
causing different sorts of inequity issues.
A stable and healthy financial source is what everyone would hope for,
actually possibly to lie and die for to keep the source ongoing for most people,
at least that's what most people know growing up in a working parents' family,
Parents would come back home after work and de-stress with their beloved kids,
sometimes share their philosophy of work and how they wish their child would not have to work,
I remember when I was just a kid,
I always wanted to work to help out with family,
And always wondered why they are being so defensive about me earning some money,
when financially it does not make any sense.
Things started to clear up as I started working,
and funny how I wished to be still cared by my parents,
but life goes on and responsibilities keep adding up,
and with all the given duties in life,
it is crucial to maintain a stable financial source,
although I would hate to admit that I would need an inorganic material to survive,
but that is the truth.
Considering anyone in a tight spot of having to pay for their tuition fees, rent and living essentials,
Majority would have possibly lied to secure a job,
Ethically wrong, but there would not be any ethics to discuss when you're broke.
Sure there are agencies to help and money to loan but for some folks, it will be limited,
At least lying to keep a job in my opinion would not affect my work performance,
since internal affairs would not be reflecting work credibility, it is more on the social side.
But I do understand on the employer's side that trust is important too,
So whether the employee forge a clever and beautiful lie,
Or don't work at all since lying is still not advisable,
But honesty in reality is like a fragile bubble of air floating up to the sky,
You don't know when it will pop before it actually reach the stratosphere,
Would you be honest and tell your boss that you are working for their money?
Although it is obvious but not many employee would admit that in front of their employer/s.
Every employer would love to have employees that are sincere and honest,
but where do you cross the line before you look like you're kissing their ass,
and have the other employees go AWOL on you.
To the very least, in my experience,
I was dedicated to help and I have helped,
Maintaining a healthy relationship with the co-workers and boss/es,
Predominantly sincere and honest in all areas of work,
but using a lie to secure a financial source would be fatally bad for me,
like pulling off a nail where the picture hangs,
although public sees the artwork,
but once the nail has been pulled off, everything shatters.
What's left is a lesson learnt,
and try like hell to stand up tall again,
and not to use a 'lie' nail to hang up my working life,
unless you're a professional liar or life-threatening desperate,
but clear it up to your boss before they find out,
any empathetic being would understand and forgive,
but still be prepared for a sack if you're uncertain.
Lesson learnt:
Honesty is honesty, it's non-manipulative and definite,
lies in the other hand can be manipulated all the time.
Trust needs honesty and some non-manipulative lies.
By Kaiwyn
most people at my age still tends to behave like a kid from time to time,
never in their naivety that they realise,
what could happen in reality,
so most of them follow the crowd,
most leaders would still have a period of time when they were followers,
until they achieve something great and was once far out of reach,
they followed the crowd and gather all the experience and knowledge.
I used the term 'most people' just to feel less guilty and to get on with it easier to be honest.
In this era, most people would acquire knowledge from tertiary studies
and worry about how to gain experience in the future.
But not all people are satisfied with just facing the books and computers,
some would be involved in work just to feel like living,
but some would involved in work actually for a living.
This could not be compared to theory, "Eat to live or live to eat"
Because you still have to eat to survive, it is a mandatory act,
but people who work just to feel like living does not compulsorily need to work.,
but who does not like some cash into their own wallet?
Men created currency to help make things function easier in the world,
but without knowing how people now cannot function without money,
causing different sorts of inequity issues.
A stable and healthy financial source is what everyone would hope for,
actually possibly to lie and die for to keep the source ongoing for most people,
at least that's what most people know growing up in a working parents' family,
Parents would come back home after work and de-stress with their beloved kids,
sometimes share their philosophy of work and how they wish their child would not have to work,
I remember when I was just a kid,
I always wanted to work to help out with family,
And always wondered why they are being so defensive about me earning some money,
when financially it does not make any sense.
Things started to clear up as I started working,
and funny how I wished to be still cared by my parents,
but life goes on and responsibilities keep adding up,
and with all the given duties in life,
it is crucial to maintain a stable financial source,
although I would hate to admit that I would need an inorganic material to survive,
but that is the truth.
Considering anyone in a tight spot of having to pay for their tuition fees, rent and living essentials,
Majority would have possibly lied to secure a job,
Ethically wrong, but there would not be any ethics to discuss when you're broke.
Sure there are agencies to help and money to loan but for some folks, it will be limited,
At least lying to keep a job in my opinion would not affect my work performance,
since internal affairs would not be reflecting work credibility, it is more on the social side.
But I do understand on the employer's side that trust is important too,
So whether the employee forge a clever and beautiful lie,
Or don't work at all since lying is still not advisable,
But honesty in reality is like a fragile bubble of air floating up to the sky,
You don't know when it will pop before it actually reach the stratosphere,
Would you be honest and tell your boss that you are working for their money?
Although it is obvious but not many employee would admit that in front of their employer/s.
Every employer would love to have employees that are sincere and honest,
but where do you cross the line before you look like you're kissing their ass,
and have the other employees go AWOL on you.
To the very least, in my experience,
I was dedicated to help and I have helped,
Maintaining a healthy relationship with the co-workers and boss/es,
Predominantly sincere and honest in all areas of work,
but using a lie to secure a financial source would be fatally bad for me,
like pulling off a nail where the picture hangs,
although public sees the artwork,
but once the nail has been pulled off, everything shatters.
What's left is a lesson learnt,
and try like hell to stand up tall again,
and not to use a 'lie' nail to hang up my working life,
unless you're a professional liar or life-threatening desperate,
but clear it up to your boss before they find out,
any empathetic being would understand and forgive,
but still be prepared for a sack if you're uncertain.
Lesson learnt:
Honesty is honesty, it's non-manipulative and definite,
lies in the other hand can be manipulated all the time.
Trust needs honesty and some non-manipulative lies.
By Kaiwyn
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Withdrawal
Well *takes a deep breathe*
Sunlight shines through the semi-transparent glass into my room full of notes and unorganised apparels.
There I was lying on the same old bed,
Looking through my contacts in my phone,
dialed up to a few friends - "No answer"
I was about to take a quick nap just before I go hardcore on studies back.
As I was about to doze off with procrastination,
I decided to jolt up from my horizontal position,
Washed my used dishes,
Cooked dinner although it's only 410pm.
Came back into the gloomy sunny room,
suddenly felt a bit autumn-ish,
the yellowness of the light soothes me as well as it brought some melancholy,
I wonder why...
Memories slowly recollected into my mind,
although I thought it was full from all the studies that I had done,
the decision of withdrawing from last semester when I had gone through it,
the decision of withdrawing from my parent's financial care,
the decision of withdrawing from love and friendship,
slowly haunts me...
every decision that I had made so far...
probably not particularly for the whole 22 years,
if I have to think about what I had consciously withdrawn from for the first time in my life,
it is definitely the decision of withdrawing from eating vegetables as a child.
Like a puzzle joining into a picture,
What will fuse into with every withdrawal or addiction?
I froze for a bit
...
Doesn't it end up into a picture of me in future?
Kaiwyn Tang
Sunlight shines through the semi-transparent glass into my room full of notes and unorganised apparels.
There I was lying on the same old bed,
Looking through my contacts in my phone,
dialed up to a few friends - "No answer"
I was about to take a quick nap just before I go hardcore on studies back.
As I was about to doze off with procrastination,
I decided to jolt up from my horizontal position,
Washed my used dishes,
Cooked dinner although it's only 410pm.
Came back into the gloomy sunny room,
suddenly felt a bit autumn-ish,
the yellowness of the light soothes me as well as it brought some melancholy,
I wonder why...
Memories slowly recollected into my mind,
although I thought it was full from all the studies that I had done,
the decision of withdrawing from last semester when I had gone through it,
the decision of withdrawing from my parent's financial care,
the decision of withdrawing from love and friendship,
slowly haunts me...
every decision that I had made so far...
probably not particularly for the whole 22 years,
if I have to think about what I had consciously withdrawn from for the first time in my life,
it is definitely the decision of withdrawing from eating vegetables as a child.
Like a puzzle joining into a picture,
What will fuse into with every withdrawal or addiction?
I froze for a bit
...
Doesn't it end up into a picture of me in future?
Kaiwyn Tang
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