These days have got me thinking about tremendous amount of matters
Feels that everytime you accomplished a task,
There always seems to have a lack of accomplishment.
Thinking if there is something else I'm missing,
which I can't pinpoint what.
I'm sure everyone has this feelings before
Wonder if anyone has found the solution for this
Somehow, I am not thrown off by these at all,
I tend to let it marinate for awhile prior to slashing the matter off my worry list
Not fearful of consequences of procrastinating
Wonder if this is a protective or destructive trait for a person
But definitely not as bad as compulsive traits
I think I might have set my perfectionism free
As for now,
doesn't matter if things are going on plan or not,
whether things I want becomes the way I wish for it to be,
or whether series of events leading to a desirable outcome or not,
I just breathe,
take it all in,
and live with it,
no point driving my anxiety over something I can't control,
especially in developing a romantic relationship,
Don't fret,
Someone may turn up,
Even if they don't,
I got more things to juggle with now,
on verge of completely transitioning into adulthood,
having to pay for mortgage soon,
multiple responsibilities,
Come what may...
One of my favourite Mandarin songs covered by myself
有爱没爱我都不会慌
By Kaiwyn Tang
Night shift letter
19th April 2018
