Coming to terms and acceptance...
It appears that it has never been an immediate occurence for me,
Not sure if I know anyone that just takes it all in upon acknowledging such information.
Things that I have chosen to let go...
Things that I have chosen to hoard...
Like an osmosis through an ever so permeable barrier.
Treasures that I perceived that you may have offered to me...
Treasures that I perceived that you may have physically looted from me...
Emotionally it kinda stays,
Either it was a fair game of give and take or not,
Sunken into a form of subconscious solvent,
Enriching the depth of my layered experiences.
I have always been trying to live in the now.
I have always been trying to envision the future.
I have always found myself in the strip of old memory lane,
Asking for a reason and rationalising every conscious decision I made and or about to make
The question that appears to always have a vague answer of self-soothe elements,
Which would not solidify the final verdict of an ended matter.
Denial? You would say that.
But before you imply any judgement on these thought processes,
Understand this,
Solutions does not always instantly warrant concrete resolute,
Resolutions does not always immediately guarantees liquidified matters or conflicts,
It all gradual and there are multiple environmental factors to achieve certain states,
Just like in physics and chemistry,
If you want to look at it in a more black and white way,
But I always enjoy a little poetic and philosophical approach in life,
I guess you would get the idea by now,
Halt!
Yeah, just as I thought.
Kevin Tang
7th May 2019
One night in Gosford, whilst on a night shift
An absolute favourite from Michelle Branch's latest album in 2017- Fault Line
Covered by Kaiwyn Tang, my singer persona
