It's been ages since I updated my blog
Even though from the looks of things I am living a busy life
But somehow a part of me still feel static
Still at the same place
Still at the same mentality
Still at the same pace
And definitely still feeling the same old self
I find it odd when people said "You've grown and matured"
But why can't I see it through my own very eyes?
Are they commenting on the physical changes?
I must admit that time haven't been that nice to me
But hey, I guess most people have the same lament at a certain stage of life
All the things and opportunities that I've gained and missed
Regretting over and celebrating over
But things that tends to haunt you
Ultimately are the things that you have no control over
That's the nature of human beings I guess
Even myself can't dodge this reality
So I always remind myself consciously
Not to over-think it
But in the end
It still lingers in the mind
Appearing in your subconscious state
So yeah
when people asks me, "How've you been?"
The standard answer that they wanna hear is probably, "I'm fine."
But being a person like me
Who at least consciously keep reminding himself to be an alternate human being but ending up as another average commoner
At this stage
I would reply
"Static"
At least I wish to be
With regards
Kevin
20th May 2014
