Static

It's been ages since I updated my blog

Even though from the looks of things I am living a busy life

But somehow a part of me still feel static

Still at the same place

Still at the same mentality

Still at the same pace

And definitely still feeling the same old self

I find it odd when people said "You've grown and matured"

But why can't I see it through my own very eyes?

Are they commenting on the physical changes?

I must admit that time haven't been that nice to me

But hey, I guess most people have the same lament at a certain stage of life

All the things and opportunities that I've gained and missed

Regretting over and celebrating over

But things that tends to haunt you

Ultimately are the things that you have no control over

That's the nature of human beings I guess

Even myself can't dodge this reality

So I always remind myself consciously

Not to over-think it

But in the end

It still lingers in the mind

Appearing in your subconscious state

So yeah

when people asks me, "How've you been?"

The standard answer that they wanna hear is probably, "I'm fine."

But being a person like me

Who at least consciously keep reminding himself to be an alternate human being but ending up as another average commoner

At this stage

I would reply

"Static"

At least I wish to be

With regards

Kevin

20th May 2014