Out of Hands

From the day when you can control things,
the very first word you spoke,
the very first item you manipulated,
the very first conscious deep sleep you took,
the very first arithmetic question you solved,
the very first friend you befriended,
you feel that you are in control,
and it will be in such way forever.

But from the day when you have to control things,
every word that you spoke,
every item that you manipulated,
every rest that you took,
every arithmetic question that you solved,
every friend that you befriended,
you hope that you are in control,
and it will not be out of your hands.

As aging process takes place,
Realisation of that there are things that can't be in control,
But still,
People work really hard to be organised,
and to remain on the "throne" of their own kingdom.
But if the motivation is from trying to keep everything in its respective spot,
Why do things become so messy on its own?
Even without your own manipulation or effort,
Things can still get out of hands and change.

So what do you perceived as being in control?
You won't know for sure if that,
the words that you have spoken is the way you want people to understand,
the items that you have manipulated is the way you want it to end up like,
the rest that you have taken is the actual amount of deep sleep you envisioned,
the arithmetic questions that you have came up with an answer to be accurate,
the friends you have taken time befriending to be your exclusive friends for life.
Being in control doesn't mean that you have to acquire what you have exactly aimed it to be like,
It's actually not being thrown off even if in the end,
what you have wanted,
did not go the way you wanted it to be.

K.Tang
21/09/2014

The sun

I'm the core,
I'm the centre of everything,
hence I control everything,
I control the amount of beams that I release,
I manage the amount of energy that I burn,
I allow the amount of planets circling around me.

I'm the core,
I'm the centre of everything,
but I don't control everything,
Other planets filter the amount of beams that they acquire,
Other planets manage the amount of energy that they receive,
Other planets also have their own moons and satellites circling around them.

I'm not the core,
I'm not the centre of everything,
and I certainly can't control everything,
as I'm only in my own galaxy.
Other galaxies have their own way of illumination,
Other galaxies have their own energy systems,
Other galaxies also have their own systems and planets populating in them.

Ultimately,
everyone's important in their own way.
Stop thinking about changing someone else,
Stop complaining about how others act,
Stop expecting that things will be done your way,
As the sun continues to burn on its own,
Supplying endless amounts of beams and energy,
The planets carry on remaining in their own orbit,
As what's important is not how much you will receive back what you've given
the crucial part is that you have willingly and effortlessly done your best,
in being what you might perceive subconsciously as...
The Absolute Centre of Everything.

With warm regards
K.Tang

Static

It's been ages since I updated my blog

Even though from the looks of things I am living a busy life

But somehow a part of me still feel static

Still at the same place

Still at the same mentality

Still at the same pace

And definitely still feeling the same old self

I find it odd when people said "You've grown and matured"

But why can't I see it through my own very eyes?

Are they commenting on the physical changes?

I must admit that time haven't been that nice to me

But hey, I guess most people have the same lament at a certain stage of life

All the things and opportunities that I've gained and missed

Regretting over and celebrating over

But things that tends to haunt you

Ultimately are the things that you have no control over

That's the nature of human beings I guess

Even myself can't dodge this reality

So I always remind myself consciously

Not to over-think it

But in the end

It still lingers in the mind

Appearing in your subconscious state

So yeah

when people asks me, "How've you been?"

The standard answer that they wanna hear is probably, "I'm fine."

But being a person like me

Who at least consciously keep reminding himself to be an alternate human being but ending up as another average commoner

At this stage

I would reply

"Static"

At least I wish to be

With regards

Kevin

20th May 2014