M.E.D.I

After examinations

PREMIERE AT University of Newcastle

HB15

10:00am

18/11/10

Director/ editor: Kevin, Ann, Ju

Actor/actresses: Hajer, Anis, Ju, Ann, Kevin, Akma

Script: Kevin, Ann

WARNING!

Operation successful!

=)

The Orange that Tasted Like Lemon

Sweetness of an orange,

Slight sourness of a lemon,

Although we have specific taste buds on our tongue,

We still can't distinguish it fully,

Just like our minds in deciding what's good,

what's bad...

Though,

our facial expression would expressed,

just like how our body react to what we may not know,

it's just a natural reflex,

hidden deep somewhere in the limbic system...

I guess.

The sweetness of an orange,

the partial sourness of a lemon comes with it sometimes,

that infinitesimal low pH taste still overrides the sweetness.

Just like how a bad deed is amplified over the goods that you've done so far.

Funny but that's reality

But sometimes,

when you caught a cold,

you lost that special sensory,

that distinguish such detailed information on your tongue.

Everything is back to basics,

just getting enough nutrition for life,

not judging or analysing what's good or bad,

just like our minds,

when immunity is down,

everything is back to basic physiology of trying to survive,

survive the everyday life.

I'm not saying that I like to be sick,

but sickness is the chance to prove others about your true inner self,

not being evaluated, judged, or analysed,

things can be so simple,

back to the innocent days of childhood,

where everyone's a gift from heaven,

waiting for time to cycle through...

I swear I was still like that three years ago (2007)...

still can be,

no?

Blissfulness

Addie

(1 more exam to go...)

Summer Scent Rain

Addressed to: Myself in future's time...

Woke up in the morning thinking it was late already...

But when I looked into my phone --> 6.23 a.m > WTF?

I swear I slept really well,

coz' I didn't use my favourite blanket to sleep,

so I felt good for achieving deep sleep stage!

Then I went out to kitchen,

read the shopping catalogues for like 30 minutes 0.o

then had an Indian breakfast

and prep up for university...

So freakin' hot and at the moment,

I wished it would rain later when I am coming back.

At that moment,

I really feel like getting rained on...for some weird reasons,

just wash me away from the haunting of the past...

Walking to university,

lots of thoughts came into my head while I was listening to a medley.

Being by the beach,

Giving you a piggyback ride,

And filming it would suit perfectly with this medley...I smiled.

At university, everything went accordingly.

Even met my uni juniors and friends who were having exams,

Kinda wish them good luck,

and they wished me too,

although I was honest and told them I wasn't prepared,

but they assumed I was joking and told me I'll do fine.

Reassuring?

Not a bit...

Walking to the library to retrieve some books to prepare,

Wow, my course-mates were there,

Holding their heads while looking through their notes,

Periculum to the max!

But I understand, I would've done that to if I can,

but I just need to focus...

Was about to go home,

All in my mind was hopefully study,

Then saw my friend came walking towards me,

She wanted to get some chips, so I just tagged along.

Chatted for a while, didn't knew that she was experiencing the same things,

Felt relieved and convinced that I wasn't a nutcase after all.

Slowly, we walk back, diverging halfway to our respective destinations - Home.

Carrying 3 books in my hand,

With sunglasses on my head,

I looked up the cloudy sky,

Thinking about the wish I made before,

I felt it comforting...as fine droplets of water feathered down from the sky.

The smell of rain and the feeling of summer...

Soothing but yet somewhat melancholic.

An old man with a stick walked out from his crib,

Reaching for the letterbox like it was important.

The round mark on his head,

gave me a glimpse of a craniectomy.

That moment, I felt I was substantial...to a certain degree.

All I have to do now is try my best,

As when I develop with age,

I could tell myself,

that I've done my best...

Don't blame the 21 year old self...

Everyone's in the rain sometimes,

don't let it soak up your emotion,

take it in and grow,

just like plants...

Grow...

Addie

Periculum

What am I doing?

What was I like before doing this?

Why am I doing this?

Can I continue like this?

Why am I doing this to myself?

These questions were raised because of the periculum inside of me.

I have no idea why every time when I met something challenging,

I would try like hell to procrastinate,

sometimes,

I do not even have to try to do that, it just happens naturally.

If there was a major of procrastination,

I would excel in it.

Is this a sign from my deepest inner side?

Or,

Is this just a habit brought from young?

Periculum...

продолжение следует

Fear

Fear is an emotional response to a perceived threat or harm.

Everyone has a specific stimulus to trigger fear and anxiety attacks.

The amygdala is responsible for the pathophysiology of fear,

wahaha medical student syndrome...

What's mine? Hmm...

I think I might be fearless hahaha

Go on, grill me all you want, I might be scared of something...

I am a human being after all...

SIGH~

No...I wished I wasn't hahaha

Computer: What animal do you fear the most?

Umm, those that can gobble me up...

Computer: What activity do you fear the most?

Diving in a dark cold deep sea...

Computer: What people do you fear the most?

Murderers

Computer: What do you fear the most emotionally?

When mistakes are irreversible...

Computer: What was your biggest fear you had ever experienced?

Dealing with the Ouija board and the night after that

Computer: Do you still fear your fears?

......I

.......can't...?

To be continued...

Au Revoir

Goodbye to the innocence,

Goodbye to the simplicity,

Goodbye to the naivety,

Goodbye to the purity,

Goodbye to the sincerity,

Goodbye to the insanity,

All was forced out as the hand of the clock moves on,

What's next?

Goodbye to the happy family,

Goodbye to the wonderful school life,

Goodbye to the puppy first love,

Goodbye to the flexible gymnast,

Goodbye to the nerdy geek,

Goodbye to the quiet kid,

Goodbye to the acne and zits,

How do I grief when there's so much things to bid farewell to?

Well, actually, underneath all that,

These are still within me,

And using it to build a better life

Ahead.

So,

Au Revoir,

Goodbye to You...

Although I'm no good in goodbyes, but I'll bare with it.

Isn't that what everyone's going through?

P.S Wishing myself all the best in exams

Addie

敢问敢答

一个阴天的早晨，

天空仿佛在隐藏些什么，

我突然郁闷了起来，

想起许多回忆和遗憾。

你突然问了起来，

“你曾经有过怎样的爱？”

我惊了一下。。。

呼吸放慢了就说了。。。

“我的初恋，

我还记得她是如此的忧郁，

她的一举一动都让我慌，让我紧张。

只是我不知道，原来她也感觉一样。

在那么不安的情绪下，

慢慢恢复朋友的状态。”

你的眼神充满的好奇与少许的悲伤，

好像我也勾起了你初恋的回忆。。。

而看着我发着呆的你，

慢慢点了头，

暗示我继续说我的爱情故事。

“一年过后，

不再想那么多，

想爱就去爱吧，

我对自己说。  

保持少年的爱态，

结果被嫌太孩子气了，

决定放下了。”

你突然躺下我旁边，

继续听我的述说，

当时我就了解了你的举动，

继续说下去。

“不敢再不顾一切去爱的我，

跌跌撞撞就遇见了他，

和他一起感觉好像我少年时候的模样，

那么的强烈那么的单纯。。。”

你突然把我的嘴，

用你温暖的手，

遮上了。。。

你很不自在的问了一句。。。

“那， 你为什么。。。会喜欢上我？”

你的眼神是如此的严格

但同时也感觉很脆弱，

我把你的手拉进了我的怀里，

我就知道我的答案也必须发自内心地说。。。

“你听好了，

我不曾聊起我的过往，

只有你那么愿意聆听我的过去，

我知道你会感到不安，

会以为我还对他们念念不忘，

所以通常我都不会说出来。。。”

你手里的温度在我怀里突然变得好温，

而你收回了它，

和另外的一个手玩了起来。。。

“那你为什么要对我说呀？

怎么也不把它藏起来？”

我再次把你的手握了起来。。。

用我的手指头在你手掌上边说边描写了那三个字。。。

  “因为 我相信。。。

你爱我。。。

而。。。

我也爱你。。。“ 

by 凯文

Wretch Addie 2010

Counting the Days

Another week to go before November,

a month of examinations and to finish everything,

before the holiday month of December...

24th Oct to 17th Nov

Finishing all assignments...and

Pretty much cramming and doing the examinations

18th Nov

Ethics video presentation!

Premiere of "M.E.D.I"

19th Nov to 3oth Nov

Packing and looking for a new home

1st Dec

Let the holidays peak!!!

Why am I still procrastinating my assignments and studies??

It really sucks to have the will to do it, but the mind doesn't go with it...

Must start immediately!!!

~Wish me luck~

I've Heard Those Songs

From Twinkle Twinkle Little Star,

it shines for A Whole New World,

while My Heart Will Go On.

Even after The Day You Went Away,

From the Bottom of My Broken Heart,

I would still like to Thank You,

coz you made me Stronger.

Moving into being a Teenage Dirtbag,

Sometimes,

I feel Barenaked,

I feel Stranded,

just Try Again and again to be a Survivor.

In the end,

it can be Complicated,

Just Like A Pill,

it can be Crazy,

but it Showed Me The Meaning of Being Lonely,

and guided me to the Way Back Into Love.

Eventually,

I was Torn and Hurt,

Occasionally I get Breathless,

being a Lovefool,

thinking Love Don't Cost A Thing,

when All I Have was Love.

Nobody Wants To Be Lonely,

At the End of The Day,

it's okay to do Something Stupid,

All You Wanted was somebody who cares.

Underneath Your Clothes,

Under the Surface,

When You Say Nothing At All,

feels like Flying Without Wings,

shouting I'm Like A Bird internally.

If you can Break The Ice,

And see From The Inside,

Ignoring all the Wrong Impression,

You're my Hero.

21/10/10

Can I go now?

If Tomorrow Never Comes...Don't Save Me

Addie

Dysphasia

At the crack of the day,

I woke up from my deepest fantasy which felt so real.

Makes me wonder where to draw the line between reality and fantasy.

Haven't been sleeping well recently, just couldn't...

It must be the weather?

It must be the university workload?

It must be the incompetence of fulfilling studies?

It must be the social relationships?

It must be the environment?

It must be?

It's funny about the contradictory of having such a strong

definite word with a question mark.

I really want to do well.

I really want to excel.

But how can I do well?

When I fell into the deepest well,

Will I still stay and dwell?

Or release myself from this lazy cell.

Only me myself can tell,

Only me myself can ring the bell,

That brings the goodness of heaven to hell.

Tomorrow's a better day?

Let's hope so...

To be discovered...

All About Me

Just felt like being grilled and someone sent me a survey in my junk mail.
So why not entertain the anonymous sender haha.

What were you doing at 11 last night?

Procrastinating

Do you think you and your best friend will be friends in 10 years?

Most probably yes

What could you eat any day of the week and never get tired of?

CHIPS with a dash of chicken salt!!!

What's the craziest thing you've done?

Hike Mount Kinabalu (4196.2 m) at 4 am and the first to reach the peak!

Someone knocks on your window at 5am, what do you say?

Who's there? Can I help you?

Funniest thing that happened in the last 24 hours?

Lecturer explaining what hysteric really means...

Do you have any plans for the weekend?
Work and maybe check out Jennifer Hawkins at Charlestown on Saturday

Would you change yourself for the person you love?

If it's impossible, they'll just have to accept me the way I am

Let me guess, your last incoming call was from the opposite sex?

Yes

Would you kiss anyone you have texts from in your phone?

Definitely

Do you find drinking unattractive?

Social is fine, but binge drinking is a total turn off!

When was the last time something bothered you?

That something never leaves me...

Do you know how to work a computer well??

Moderately, I detest slow computers...

Is it more common for you to follow your heart or your mind?

Depends...I've taken the risks

Six months ago, can you remember who you liked, who was it?

Nope, no one in my mind...

Do you like to hold hands?

Always try to...

Anything embarrassing happen today?

I was using a computer in the library and suddenly it roared from the inside for quite a while...

Would you ever go on a game show if you were offered?

Yeh sure, who wouldn't like some fame?

What does your phone do when it receives a new text?

"Stay with me~Anata wa kitto kitto" by my voice

Has anyone ever done mean things to you while you were sleeping?

Poured cold water onto me when i was 10...

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

Sort of, but still not everything...

Would you rather be at the beach or lake?

Beach when I feel happy, lake if I wanna just chill out...

Last thing you spent money on?

Optus Recharge Voucher...bugger

What are you doing after this?

Hopefully study a bit...

Your song of the week?

Jennifer Love Hewitt - I'm Gonna Love You

Have you ever cried from being so mad?

I was blamed for something I didn't do when I was 13...

Are you happy with the choices you've made?

What can I do? I have to be happy

I bet you miss someone, huh?

Everyone does...

Would you rather be forced to eat 100 bananas or 100 apples?

100 Fuji Apples

Have you dated the person you texted last?

No, but there may be a day...

Is good grammar attractive?

As long as it connects...

Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago?

Not much...

What is today's date?

13/10/2010

Has anyone ever sang to you?

I'm the one always singing to others...

What is your favorite color?

Yellow

What color are your eyes?

Dark brown

How tall are you?

178cm...

If you could have one wish right now what would it be?

I wish there wasn't only one wish...

When is your birthday?

27th December

Who is the 9th contact in your phone?
Course Mate Akma

Ever liked someone who treated you like crap?

During high school...

If you could spend more time with someone you used to be very close with, would you?
Just let it flow...

Could you go a day without eating?

Maybe...if I sleep through it

What are you excited for?

Perfection

Would you date an 18 year old at the age you are now?

Why not

What are you listening to now?

Night sound of crickets

Would you take someone back if they cheated on you?

If they told me the reason why genuinely and promise not to again.

Have you ever dyed your hair?

With ammonia free dyes only

How many windows are open on your computer?

3- MSN, Skype, Google Chrome

Anything you really want?

Love, support and hugs

How many pillows do you sleep with?

One good memory pillow and a hugging pillow

Can you have more than one best friend?

Maybe...haven't tried

What was last thing you drank?

Sunkist Soda

What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider?

Hot chocolate, not big for alcohol

Who last texted you?

Felix

Who did you last text?

Felix

Do you know anyone whose pregnant?

My patients??

What do you want right now?

Motivation

Music Shuffle: 25 Questions

Rules:

1. Open up any media player and put it on shuffle
2. Answer each question by posting the song title and band
3. POST NO MATTER HOW STUPID IT SEEMS TO YOU!
4. Don't cheat and try not skipping over any questions
5. Tag 3 people

________________


1. If someone stole your favorite item, what would you yell out of anger?
So, this is the real you - Cyndi Wang

2. You trip and fall in front of your crush, they say:
You get me - Michelle Branch

3. A moment of disappointment hits you, what do you mutter?
I Love You Forever - Jewel

4. If you could have anything in the world, what would it be?
The Third Person - Fish Leung

5. What's the best way to describe your closest friend?
Despite that, I know - Mayday

6. Best movie of all time?
Stranded - Jennifer Paige

7. Best make-out spot to take someone?
Crybaby - Jiang Mei Qi

8. A song that would play during a wicked torturing of your enemies?
Feelin' So Good - Jennifer Lopez

9. A theme song that would play everytime your parent(s) enter a room?
Red Bean - Faye Wong

10. You're walking home and you find 20 bucks, what you you say?
SuperStar - Kim Ah Jung

11. Your Theme song?
Eternal loneliness - Rene Liu

12. The end of the world is near, your reaction?
There's you - Fish Leong

13. A good song to kill to?
21 Guns - Green Day

14. Someone broke your heart, what will you do now?
Hurts to breathe - Fish Leong

15. Your make-out song?
Cosy in the Rocket- PSAPP (Grey's Anatomy theme)

16. You punch someone in the face, what do they cry out?
Love for you - Genie Zhuo

17. A rock is thrown through your window with a note on it. It says?
Gong Xi Fa Cai - Andy Lau

18. Someone compliments you on something, your reply?
Longing - Aki Huang & Yuan Wei Ren

19. What does the world and everyone in it think of you?
When you think of me - Victor Wong + Sinje Lee

20. An opening fight scene song?
Suddenly missing you - Mayday

21. If you where one of the 7 sins... which would you be?
After breakup we can still be friends - Happy Boy

22. Your favorite bedtime story?
Don't you gift me with flowers - Rene Liu

23. The song you'll make your husbund/wife dance to when you get married?
Present - Ranma 1/2

24. You and a friend are trapped on an island, how will you decide leadership?
The event of possibility - FanFan + Angela Zhang

25. How will people remember you when you're dead and gone?
Way Back Into Love - Hugh Grant + Demi Moore

等待而离开？

等待是一种耐心，

也是一种责任，

等待你静静的温柔，

等待我静静的妥协，

这个等待的游戏，

规则随时随地的变换，

到底谁赢谁输，

还是伤感情。

等待幸福的人越等越失去信仰，

等待回应的人却越等越遗失了归属感。

两人始终因热恋中的承诺而等了再等，

在爱情里放了感情的两人，

不管多或少，

选着了等待爱情的转变，

可惜耐心只能让爱情的温度减退的更快，

当耐心已被用完的时候，

爱情也默默的回到的比原点更原点，

恋人变成了陌生人，

接下来等待的是一句道歉？

还是又再等待伤口的愈合？

其实在分前的等待已经开始了初步的疗伤，

把回忆收拾进一个没密码的保险箱，

慢慢的离开后，

渐渐的把那个保险箱锁上。。。

密码是。。。

“想念”

by 凯文

Wretch Addie 2010

Kevin Tang featuring ???- Cupidtised [Original]

Written on the journey back from Eastwood to Newcastle.
It was actually my first duet song I written.
'Cupidtized' is a word I created, from base word of cupid (a love angel shooting arrows of love)
I didn't realize that I'm writing a duet at first, but as I advanced, it sounded better with another female counterpart to make this song flow. Currently I have not get hold of any female singer but when I do, I shall record it =)

Composed and Lyrics by Kevin Tang.

(Boy)
Saw a reflection in the sky,
Did not realise,
Why it is dark and yet so bright?
Then I saw you in my eyes,
Did not realise,
Why am I so freakin' high?

{Pre-Chorus}
It must be,
The weather in the sky.
It could be,
My mind~

Didn't know that I would like,
Someone in your likes,
Oh girl, I cannot hide,
With that round and flashy eyes,
You've got me mesmerised.
I think I've got cupidtised.

[Girl]
Saw a lightning in the sky,
Did not realise,
Why is it loud and yet so quiet?
Then I saw you just outside,
Did not realise,
Why am I so hypnotised?

Repeat {Pre-Chorus}

Didn't know that I would like,
Someone in your likes,
Oh boy, I cannot hide,
With that cute and puppy eyes,
You've got me mesmerised.
I think I've got cupidtised.

<Together>
(Run along,)
[I kept running on.]
<Didn't know you're behind~
Chasing me on~>

[Didn't know that I would like,] (I would like)
[Someone in your likes,] (You're my kind)
[Baby, I just cannot hide,] (So don't hide)
[With that cute and sexy eyes,] (It's those eyes)
[You've got me mesmerised.] (Mesmerised)
<I think I've got cupidtised.> (Cupidtised)

<Hey angels be our guide,
Cupids will be fine,
Baby, we cannot deny.
With that blue and shiny eyes,
You've got us mesmerised.
I think we've got cupidtised.>

(Yeah~ Cupidtised) x3
[Huhuwu~]

END

Kevin Tang- I'm Sorry [Original]

This song is partly written in the train journey after exams, kinda feel obligated to apologise to myself for not remembering anything necessary to fill in the exam paper...

And I completed the other half at Macquarie Library during study breaks.

Lyrics and Composed by Kevin Tang

White clouds,

Blue skies,

Wonder if they collide?

My heart,

Still burns,

Looking into your eyes.

Following the pace of your heartbeat,

Trying to complete your incomplete,

I'm weak,

Couldn't see,

The grey clouds coming...

Pouring...

CHORUS

I'm Sorry~ So sorry~

Don't leave me~ (Believe Me~)

My honey~ So sorry~

Come to me~ (Be with me~)

White sounds,

Dark nights,

Wonder if that I'm fine?

My heart,

Still yearns,

Analysing my lies...

Following the pace of my heartbeat,

Trying to complete my incomplete,

In defeat,

Couldn't see,

The front door shutting...

Thinking...

Repeat CHORUS

I'm so confused.

Why had you refused?

Repeat (CHORUS)

I'm sorry...(x3)

END (Fade out effect)

Kevin Tang- Train Story [Original]

After the insanely bullcrapping second examination, I decided to leave this sad place and this was written on the train journey, from Newcastle to Eastwood.

Lyrics and Composed by Kevin Tang

Going through the traffic lights,

Looking at the clear blue sky,

Came across you,

Caught my eye,

You're so fine,

I'm mesmerised.

Goodbye~

The story ends here,

coz it's not my stop.

Yellow leaves were blown outside,

Sunlight shined on something fine,

There you were,

Caught my eye,

Looked so hot,

No faulty spots.

Goodbye~

The story ends here,

coz it's not my stop.

Travel into the tunnel,

All I can see is me by the window,

How I wish that I could meet 'you'.

Just randomly would be so good,

At least I could start something new.

A ray of sunlight bursting in,

A trance in heaven rushing in,

Time to get down,

It's my stop.

Saw 'you' there,

without a doubt.

Oh My~

I didn't thought that,

this'd be my last stop...

I wanna tell you,

...stranger,

Don't think I'll deny that

You're my kind~

END

看不透的玻璃

冬天的一个早晨，跟自己答应好了要努力念书，

面对考试的男孩，却在网上绕呀绕。

仿佛在寻找失去的爱人，只是爱人已经离开了，

自从他离开他的身边时，就注定无缘了。

其实他已经看透了很多，可是被别人看透的自己，

往往都是很容易被人误会的画面，而他好的一面永远是被遮住。

慢慢的习惯了被说是坏的，是不好的，

甚至邪恶的，都对他而言，已经变成了一个习惯。

曾经在一些追求完美的他，也渐渐消失到最深的内海里，

因为完美是不会长久的。

就算一个人能完美多久，被记下来的，

都是一些不完美的线索。

就像看不透的玻璃，

人们只在意玻璃的外观， 

当玻璃能被看透时，

在脑海里记得的画面，

都是一些不完美的现象。

所以人们也制造了自己的窗帘，

把不好的一些，像面具，隐藏着，当自己感觉自豪时，拉开窗帘与别人分享。

对这男孩而言，也无所谓了，

反正没人愿意停留在窗外，看看他的优点，或更改他的缺点，

曾经试过不装窗帘的他，可是都不会被珍惜，也让自己伤透了。

在未来，或许有人会来探索，他或许也会自己再度扯开窗帘，

只希望有人能够看透这一片看不透的玻璃，和记住美好的，开心的画面。

不懂得珍惜的人，只好错过了一次幸福的画面。 

男孩在你看不透的玻璃后，微笑着，期待着。。。他好了。。。

问候在你自己的你自己的看不透的玻璃里， 

好吗？

Wretch Addie 2010

Dream #01- A tested situation

Dreams for me have been a relevant topic in my life.
Since childhood, dreams are often made memorable, even after waking up.
But this is the first time I would like to share it on my blog...and more yet to come.

Dream #01 [07 June 2010]

Is it me or I feel insecure?
It started with me, going to an examination, and I was kinda panicky and stressed out.
At the exam hall, it seems that they have ran out of exam rooms and I was told to wait.
So, I went to a bookstore nearby, a mysterious and pleasant one, with a pretty shopkeeper.
There were books, toys, unusual gadgets and lifestyle items.
What I remembered holding is a blue purple voluptuous rabbit wizard artifact.
The shopkeeper looked worried as I picked it up, but I thought she was just worried of me breaking it and nothing else. It was glittering as I hold it up, I thought it was a music box or a good luck charm.
To my amusement, I asked her about the price and she mumbled,

"Once broken, considered sold..."

She smiled seductively, as I place the artifact back to its place. Telling her that I wasn't intending to buy it anyway.

Just at that moment, some of my course mates came into the shop discussing about the exams...so I left and went back to the exam hall to see if I'm going in next.
To my delight, I was told to come in tomorrow instead and they've booked me in as well.
I find it weird at first, thinking since when do students need to make a booking for examination spots?

So, I went back home, wondering why...but not for long, I was lost in a pile of books instead of thinking about that.
Tomorrow comes and I went for the exams...and to my surprise, the exam coordinator told me that I've already taken my test yesterday and even for today, my spot is already been filled by myself...
I didn't believe it and went into the exam hall to see it for myself, and there it was...another me sitting for the exams...at that moment...I blacked out...

In the dark, I heard a chime...and I remember I've heard it somewhere...I woke up and saw myself, but it was just a reflection on the mirror ceiling. Then, my phone rang and a girl's voice said...

"Remember to take your medicine..."

As the sunlight barges into my room, I am awake in reality...

当你问我[你救哪一个？]

你曾经被问过这问题吗？

“如果我和他掉进海里，你会救谁？”

这个问题，对很多人来说是个无聊的问题。

但当这个问题被提起时，通常在爱情里是某方怀疑爱出现了故障，已经到了猜不透的地步。

到底是什么？

第三者？

工作和情人的相比？

患重病了？

父母反对？

etc...

不管什么理由。。。这个问题有时让人不安，有时让人怀疑爱情的地位。。。

老实说，有时候，男方也会问这个问题。。。

比起女方，若男方提起这个问题，心里的不安其实比起女方更加严重。。。

安全感在爱情里很重要的。

若没有，感觉回到了暗恋的过程，不确定的关系。

很多人都会用回问题的方式回答，

你干吗问这个？

你觉得呢？

哪，如果换是我和他呢？

你不会游泳吗？

也有人会用幽默来解答，

我两个都救，我游泳很强的。

当然是你先啦，傻瓜！ （微笑着）

两个都不救，自己救自己。

我会把救生圈丢给你们。

也会有人选择了沉默，

。。。

不管得到什么样的答案，心里的不安还是会有的，

因为这个问题本来就没有对错，

是看对方的反应，

有时候不用答，明知猜对，

问这个问题，是来不直接的提起分手计划罢了。

人是聪明的，可是竟然苯得可以问这个16岁似的问题，

就知道一定有他的理由。。。

所以，

如果是我，

我会给他一个紧紧的拥抱，

在他耳边呼唤。。。

“我爱你。。。

。。。别再怀疑，傻瓜。”

Wretch Addie 2010

Kevin Tang- The Cut After the First [Original-Clear cut audio demo]

The voice solo audio version with karaoke lyrics.
The opening of the song contains a chorus verse from Sheryl Crow's / Rod Stewart's
"The First Cut is the Deepest"

Thank you for listening!

Procrastination continues...

Seriously, I think I can be classified as a major procrastinator.
If there's a challenge of who will be the best procrastinator, I think I can see myself winning it.
But I don't feel like thinking of it...I'm gonna try to study as hard as possible.

Plans to initiate:

1. Stop surfing YouTube, Facebook and other random crap.
2. Block the melody in my head.
3. Stop bludging around, listening to music.
4. Stop finding excuses to not start studying.
5. Get a friend to check up on my progress.
6. Do the past year exam questions to freak myself out on how dumb I am.
7. No craving for horror games.
8. Decrease online chatting with random people (unless they're your friends)
9. Avoid spacing out thinking of people who won't care about myself.
10. Go to the library to get freaked out by colleagues on how much they know.

So, I'll let the first step now, by signing off.

OH GOD or whatever that has something to do with good luck, please let me score for this exams! I don't ever wanna repeat this boring semester!

But I've to rely on my own...BULK UP~

Laziness is intolerable!!!
Work hard for 2 weeks and 1 month holiday!!!
LET"S DO THIS!!!

PMS- Procrastinating Medical Studies

I'm kinda lazy to start to revise my studies before the exams...LoL

Need to stop procrastinating or I'll end up repeating my year of studies...which will be catastrophic~

Got sidetracked so easily, damn!

Wish me luck!

Time to start hardcore studies!

Cheerios!

Ventriloquism- My Noisy Room Mate

My first ventriloquism that I have done with my 'room mate' Blackie. A scene where Blackie is bugging me from studying for the examinations, whining about his hunger and pissing me off~

军犬式的爱

我其实是一个从来不发表我的内心世界的人，

可是遇见你后，你改变了我。

我也没怪过你。。。

原来我都猜不透爱。。。

我承认自己错在先。。。也不想再解释什么，因为你都会觉得是个谎言，

像军犬狗在旺旺叫。

错了以后，发觉你也变了，其实我也变了吧。。。

在这只有我承担所有的错的感情里，我能如何让你对我刮目相看？

当我对你温柔，你当是多余，

当我对你报告，你当是无聊，

当我们见面的时候，你和在简讯里的你不一样，

忽冷忽热，如果你说这是你惩罚我的处罚，我都接受，

你要我不介意你的坏习惯，你的过去，我都没说什么，

因为我还是深深的爱着你，关心着你， 我会包容你的一切。

可是你却当我军犬似的，

耍得团团转， 

加上距离的关系，当你在我怀里找不到爱，你也发奋图强的找寻爱，

我也不怪你，因为毕竟我不在你身边，

对你而言，爱情就要在一起，

对我而言，理想和未来才能建立美好的爱情，

难道我为未来着想是错的吗？

其实我也有想过放弃一切，去过一个平凡快乐的日子。

可是我得到的只是你的。。。

军犬式的爱情。

我是一个从小就不哭的孩子。。。

这个性，还是没改变，只是胸口的疼，越来越强。

仿佛我的内心在流泪的感觉。。。

这一阵子，就要考试的我，

必须把你放进心底。。。因为我对你，

就像军犬的爱，永远放不下主人，

就算被主人抛弃了，

被主人嫌弃了，

还是会想主人开心。。。

只要你开心就好，

我会像军犬似的守候着你。

爱老虎油 (I love you) ，主人。

Wretch Addie 2010

Kevin Tang- You're My Kind [Original]

2nd English song (Yet to be recorded due to exam season)
Composer: Kevin Tang
Lyrics: Kevin Tang

Sometimes I think that you're too kind,
Sometimes I think that I'm so blind,
to not think,
that you're one of a kind.

That night, I felt so out of line,
You came and said that I'll be fine,
Just be strong,
and I'll survive.

Telling me all your storyline,
Baking me treats that were so fine,
And yet,
I did not notice why~

CHORUS
#All this while I know I've been so blind,
To notice all the signs you left behind,
Maybe I'm outta my mind, my mind~

I don't wanna make or tell you lies,
I don't wanna hide my love inside,
I don't wanna lose you,
Be by my side~#

RAP
Hey girl, wasn't confident at first,
Didn't thought that we have the same thrist.
Hey girl, I'm about to burst,
Follow me to the end of the universe~

Repeat #CHORUS#

Together hand in hand we'll be just fine,
I promise that for you, I'll sacrifice,
I just wanna let you know,
You're my kind~
Oh, yeah, you're my kind~

Kevin Tang- The Cut After The First [Original]

A song composed and performed by Kevin Tang.

Lyrics:-

This happened during high school,

When I confess my love to you.

You were with him~

And then after a year or two,

You came to me with tears and you,

Want to be with me~

And after a while you,

I don't know where have you gone to,

And when I searched, it was him with you.

CHORUS

Yeah~ The cut after the first,

Oh~ The cut after the first,

When they say (A song said),

the first cut supposed to be the deepest.

Mm~ The cut after the first (Now I realized)

Oh~ The cut after the first (It's just too late for me)

Well I think (To know that),

The cut after the first

The cut after the first is deeper

I don't know what to do

Why have you re-open my wound?

When I thought that you love me~

(Repeat chorus)

And the story ends,

You abandoned me.

Left me here alone with my fantasy.

Finally, the wound will start to heal,

And I'll forgive you.

Copyright Law Rights Reserved.

Thank you for listening to my first english composition.

群爱

最近不知道为什么，突然睡前，那么多灵感。。。

把灵感全写成了一首又一首的歌曲。。。

还记得第一首作品在2007年时候，《爱情杀手》。

然后2008的《生日狂想曲》。
对你说，我的生日到底如何过~ 你的生日到底会不会寂寞， 你在哪里过，和谁一起度过？~

2009年却写了英文歌，《The Cut After The First》
The cut after the first...Oh, the cut after the first (x3) is deeper....
They say the first cut is the deepest, but, I think they're wrong, coz I think,
The cut after the first (x3) is deeper~

今年短短一个月内就出现了好多好多。。。（都是副歌的部分）



《喜欢你》 
我从一开始就很喜欢你，有时候梦里都会遇见你，
不管我做任何事都想你，原来我真的喜欢你~

《大声说爱你》 
我~想~大声说出那句话，我爱你。
不想再犹豫和害怕会失去了你。
深呼吸， 提起勇气， 终于把暗恋变成回忆，
请你继续再听我说下去~
我~ 要~ 我们不只是朋友的关系。Yeah~
我答应我会去珍惜这份爱情。
我知道你的秘密， 也把你暗恋变成回忆，
从这一刻开始倒数爱情~

《流着眼泪》
我流着眼泪， 心想着你。
在这个世界，爱是唯一。
你要我相信，用我爱你， 来抚平怀疑。
我流着眼泪， 你在哪里？
在我的世界， 你为什么要离去？
最后只剩下我一人哭泣~

《说不出来》 
我~ 说不出来， 说不出来，
对你的爱， 还是说不出来，
为何？ 别人那么的坦白， 我还是说不出来~

《不想念吗？》 
我不曾想念你所说过的谎言，
我不曾想念你所说的诺言，
我不曾想念你所说的甜言，
骗自己不再去想念。
但我还想念你说爱我那瞬间，
我还很想念你和我的手在牵，
我很想念爱你之前的自己。已经不见~

《无缘的情人》
是你的力量， 让我忘记了伤。
你曾去流浪，为了找寻方向。
我从不知道， 爱就在我身旁。
原来我们只是一对无缘的情人~

《不能和你在一起》 
我不能和你在一起， 就当我真的爱你，
我不能欺骗我自己， 更不能一次再次伤害你~
我不能和你在一起， 我知道他很爱你，
我不想破坏这爱情， 更不想在他背面假装下去~

《一个人》 
一个人看着TV，两个人会在哪里？
为什么快乐要两人的时候才能进行？
我相信自己一个， 也可以过得很甜蜜。
我不再期待爱情所说的甜言蜜语，
就算选择一个人旅行也没什么关系，
我爱自己。



待续。。。